Happy 3 Month Birthday Baby Tyler

Today is Tyler's 3 month birthday. It is interesting how his memories come back around this time of the month. I hope he is doing well. I hope he is happy and loved and safe. Happy 3 months old sweet baby.

I am trying not to get to excited about this next potential adoption...but I find it hard not to get excited. We are flying out next weekend (Nov. 6) to meet her. She lives in Austin TX. Yes, I did say we would never adopt from Texas; however, it appears the laws are different than I thought. The birthfather can sign/relinquish his rights before the baby is born and he already has. The birthmother can sign 2 days after the baby is born. Then they take the two signatures and present them to a judge. Apparently you can get in with a judge the same day or after instead of DAYS like NM. Once the judge gives the okay it is final.

I do have complete faith that Heavenly Father's hand will be in this adoption. I know that if this baby is meant to be in our family then he will be and if not then I trust in Heavenly Father and have faith that things will be the way they should be.

Owen and I are working on our project of baby boy names. This will be our fourth time this year brainstorming baby boy names. I'm not sure why choosing a name is so difficult for us! I think part of it is the emotional part of choosing a name. When you brainstorm and come to a conclusion of a name, you automatically get attached to the baby. By waiting last minute to choose a name I think psychologically it's less time to get attached. I think it may be time to get a new name book!

3 Weeks

Well, I am surprised that it has been almost 3 weeks since my last post. It is exciting in a way because it's proof that I am okay. Will I always remember Tyler...yes. But, I think about him less and less every day and I might be brave to say that I have let him go.

What has helped me to let him go? Time...is the biggest factor. When there is heartache truly time heals it. It just takes time. I have experienced heartache before and time was the cure and it is now. Time will never let you down!

Another factor...we've been corresponding with a new birthmom! Things are looking very positive. We are going to fly out to meet her in a few weeks. She is due in a month and a half! We have a good feeling about her but again my friend time will tell.

My sister was surprised that we are willing to try again so soon. I told her "Well...I don't think things could be much worse than Tyler's experience!" I do say this with a sense of humor because I think it's very true. We are not taking this baby boy home this time until it is official.

This new potential adoption is still very new...so much can change in one day. But, for now it gives me a little something to look forward to! :)