The hospital staff were so nice to Owen and I. Most of them were pro-adoption and wanted it to happen. Of course I think there was one nurse who was not very happy about it. People are so uneducated about adoption. People who are unfamiliar with adoption think "how can someone give away her baby!" What they don't realize is that this mother loves her child SO much that she is willing to give them MORE because she knows in her heart she is not ready to parent. That kind of love is pure, unselfish love. Only a mothers love. One birthmother said is best when she said "I would rather suffer than have my baby suffer." I absolutely LOVE all birthmothers regardless of their situations. Of course they love their child and that is why they choose to place their child for adoption. Period.
Today I kept thinking about all of the things we could have done differently. I would have begged Lisa to place Tyler in a foster home for one week to just see if the father would change his mind. I would have driven down to see Lisa and Tyler sooner than when I did. I would have sent her more e-mails with links about adoption and videos the night she was deciding. Who knows if there would have been a different outcome. I guess that is how we learn things.
I keep reading about birthmothers who ended up changing their minds about parenting and placing their babies when they were one, three, nine, or even 18 months old. I can't help but keep wishing that she will be one of the few who change her mind. I know I need to move on, but it's so hard hearing these stories. How do I move on and let go when I'm still hopeful for a call saying she changed her mind?
Today Ryder and I made it to the zoo around 11:30am (better than yesterday!). We then went to his first dentist appointment and I was so proud of him. He opened his mouth wide and listened very well. He has no cavities...hooray!
No comments:
Post a Comment